My Prayer Journal

Lord, I know you know all that has happened. It certainly wasn't what I wanted but I trust that You know better.  I am glad I found out the truth before I wasted anymore time or more of my heart. I know You know the awful things I said in the midst of my pain. Some of it--they deserved. Adn I do regret that I couldn't control my emotions or actions. Nothing excuses what I said. And I'll do my best to make amends in time--thought I doubt they care.  Right now the only forgiveness that metters to me is Yours for me and mine for those that hurt me. I know You will deal with them. I know that he didn't fit Your plan for my life--that I couldn't take him to where You are taking me, for whatever reason. I still need You to show me what Your plan is. And I trust that You will. Thank you for my family and friends that have stuck with me thru this awful time. Help me to stay off social media and anything else not meant for me to mend my heart, grow my faith or anything...

Lord, So much has happened since I last wrote my prayers down.  You answered my prayers about a man in my life by reconnecting me with Joel.  I didn't think I'd be attracted. He'd always been one of those "good guys" from Tarrant.  But he swept me off my feet.  He was everything I prayed for and these last few months have been some of the happiest of my life.  He seemed to want the same things. He wanted a relationship and a future. He wanted our kids to know each other.  He called me the love of his life and his family. Now, just last week, things are all of a sudden different and I don't know what happened. It has to be an attack by the enemy.  Because I'll never believe that You would orchestrate something so wonderful and allow doubts and uncertainty to creep in if it were your plan. Your word says Your plan is to give us a hope and a future, to bless and prosper us. Lord, we're 48 years old.  You knwo this.  Of course we come tog...

Lord, I am thankful for so much! Thank you that Darrell will be okay. I ask that You, almighty God continue to protect and bless him.  Get him off the streets Lord. Move mountains and get it rolliing like only you can. Thank you for timely scriptures and devotionals. Thank you for the freedom of rejection. I ask that my heart not be bitter with disappointment but full of joy in knowing You plan has yet to be revealed. Thank you for the opportunity to plan new fields for You. I will faithfully go where You send me. Keep my focus on You!

Lord, I am so thankful for everythinig I have - You, my family and friends, home, health, job. I thank you for giving me the desire to know You and serve You by serving others. Lord, I pray for healing and better relationships with my precious children. I am also praying that you would put a man in my life that loves me for who I am and that needs someone like me. For those currently in it, regardless of whether they are meant for me as a mate or friend, I pray your blessings over them. Forgive me when I stumble and fall short and as always, thank You for loving me anyway. (1st date with Joel was September 1, 2017)